CKCK-012 | "Am I your property, Natsu?" Even though I know you'll never belong to me, you still control me. Whenever I felt lonely, you would conveniently seek my body. You were more than a friend, but less than a lover. I sacrificed everything to get a tattoo of my youth that will never fade. Hinata Natsu

"Can I have a bite of your ice cream?"
You can see other people's things better, and because they belong to others, you want them
That doesn't change even when you become an adult

There was a boy I met when I was a university student who was convenient for me
He confessed his love to me, but we didn't date, so I just kept him.

When the sex with my boyfriend wasn't great,
or when I was lonely without a boyfriend,
I would send him a message asking,
and he would reply 100% with,
"Sure."
He was a convenient person for me

Even after graduating, he didn't get a permanent job
but continued working part-time at the bar he'd been working at since his student days

It seems he chose to work part-time so that he could rush over whenever I called
and I took my boyfriend to a bar for the first time in a while since I became a working adult. I showed up to see him
Because I wanted to see his jealous face

It seemed he was dating a part-time girl at the same bar
He looked very awkward

I can see other people's things so well...I want them...
I changed my purpose...I'll cuckold him
It was the first time in a while I asked him to have sex with me and he didn't refuse

Just like in our student days
I called him over whenever it was convenient and we had sex

He really loved me...but he was faced with the dilemma of not being able to have me
He said he wanted to go back to his hometown and reevaluate his life

I didn't stop him...but
There are plenty of boyfriends to replace, but no one can replace you...
I want you to love me forever
Is it selfish to think that?

I've left you with a tattoo of your youth that will never fade...